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November 15, 2004

Should've Known Better

Note: You can safely ignore this post. I'm sure it's just the typical pre-finals angst here and everything will look rosier come December 15 or so when those finals are over. Or maybe the rosiness won't come until grades come out in February. Or maybe that will kill the rosiness. Whatever. It's all cyclical and predictable and really, I should just go study.
Ambivalence about law school reigns. While good law students like Energy Spatula spend hours in the library trying to nail down complicated rules (and getting jobscongratulations!), I've been feeling like law school is a distant acquaintance I haven't seen or really thought about in years. It's time to buckle down, outline, study study, but... Well, as regular readers known, and as you can see again from the lengthy discussion in comments of this post, I haven't been thrilled with my experience of law school so far. That's no shock; lots of law students aren't thrilled with law school. If we took a survey, we might just find a good majority of current and former students actually loathe (or loathed) law school. Why? I could list reasons, but they all beg the question: Does law school have to be such a crap experience? It doesn't, but it is. Everyone told me it would be like this. (Well, not everyone; I know practicing attorneys who loved law school, but only a couple.) I knew it would be like this. I mean, in theory you could get a bunch of people together to study the laws that regulate our society and expect to get some lively discussion of pressing issues, some critical thinking, some new ideas, some passion. But that's not law school. That might be something professors do in their own research and writing, but not in their teaching. Not when they're teaching 100 students or more per class, and not when they teach in an educational system designed by and for business/corporate interests. But I really don't want to go into it all here. For more thoughts on how law school could be improved, check out an upcoming edition of the [non]billable hour's five by five series (sometime in the next couple of weeks; I'll link to it when it comes up). So it's time to do the study thing. And all the other law school stuff. And then I see the decision by Evan of Going to Cooley to drop out of law school for now (for family reasons, I gather), and I admire it, and it makes me jealous. Being a law school drop out sounds so blissful! What a joy it would be to walk away now! But I fear the joy would be short-lived as I faced the prospect of getting a job and living a life wondering what I might have done had I finished this damned degree. And then I see Jeremy decide to turn down an offer from a big firm because the law just doesn't really grab him like writing does. I think, yeah, me too! Or, me neither! Maybe I should just do what Jeremy's doing—get the J.D. and then do something else. Obviously, that's an option. But that means I still have to take these damnable finals in the next few weeks, doesn't it? *sigh*

Posted November 15, 2004 09:10 AM | 2L

You know from our discussion last summer that I feel this way too...and this year has done nothing to alleviate my overwhelming underwhlemedness at the law school experience. Right now I'm hoping that working next summer at a place I *perceive* to be decent will make a difference in my attitude. It's certainly not being helped by being stuck in a class with a prof who goes down each row when we've read a case from 1948 forcing each person to guess a Supreme Court justice until we get them all...which takes the entire class period. I'm not feeling very inspired! But, hang in there, because IF this is what you decide to do I think you'll be great! And if not, I think you'll be great at whatever you do. Remember the ES mantra *If you go to law school and don't become a lawyer, you don't DIE! It's just another degree to do with (or not) what you please*

Posted by: energy spatula at November 15, 2004 10:28 AM

Nope, you're not alone in feeling as if this law school thing is a sham. It's like wine tasting. You keep trying different combinations in hope that you'll get that one magical moment where the stars align and everything tastes like heaven. In the meantime there's a lot of swirling and spitting.

Posted by: Beanie at November 16, 2004 02:13 PM

Ahhh this is a fantastic post. I only started reading your blog a few weeks ago but so far it it just cracks me up sometimes and is a great read in general.I am a lowly 1L and law school is definetly not fun but it seems everyone around me thinks it is. It's so nice to hear someone feel like I do. Keep it up and don't let the bastards grind you down.


Posted by: Moo at November 18, 2004 12:11 AM

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